Tutt Family Fundraiser

There are a huge number of people that have been working their butts off to pull off an amazing night for the kids and I. October will be over before we know it. The fundraiser is set for Saturday, October 25th. Ticket sales have been slower than expected and if you're anything like me, you maybe were leaving things until the date was closer.... But we could really use your support. Please if you are planning on attending (and I really hope you are) buy your tickets!

Please visit tuttfamily.ca for information, and to buy tickets!

I'll take a moment right now to thank everyone involved in putting this event together. It's going to be a great night.

Love of Fall

Terry Fox Run

Well I'm sure there are many of you out there wondering how these Tutts are doing. We're doing pretty good. Summer was great, the kids and I spent time on the coast with Dan's Mom and Dad (Nicky and Bruce) and there isn't one bad thing to say about the weather we had. Gorgeous!

The kids have settled into school really well. Carly in grade 4 and Andrew in grade 1. Big adjustment for Andrew but he was more than ready and is doing great, just like his big sister. Bradley continues to grow and change always testing the limits and making everyone smile around him. Early in the summer he finally gave up crawling for RUNNING.... and there's been no stopping him.

Bradley in the Rain

I think about Dan almost every minute. Most of the time I just smile at a memory or my angry.. "where did you put that Dan!" moment. Sometimes I cry, because I miss him so much it hurts to even take a breath. I am reminded of how hard the end was for him and I'm so glad that's over for him, and us. I feel how how much work and stress life was for us. I see it now. We didn't know it then. I feel sad that he never got to know the after.... the calm our house has. Amongst the tears there is a lot of laughter again, something I know he would love. I honestly never knew how funny my daughter was. I couldn't hear or see it before. He knew. I love, as I always did, seeing Dan in the kids. 

I love to talk about him. I think people understand that. I love a memory shared, or a joke at his expense or mine, it makes me feel good. It's the only closeness to him I get anymore. This is such an incredibly hard journey for everyone, not just me and the kids. I think actually we were more prepared than the rest of you. I started my grieving with Dan. We grieved his death together for months and months before he died. Thank God I had him to help me through some of it. 

I love fall. The colours, the crisp air, the calmer winds. Dan took amazing photos this time of year. Like the one that boarders this blog. Gorgeous blue sky with bright yellow aspen leaves. I miss him.